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CNY celebration this year has been happening so far.

I went m’sia to visit my paternal relatives. Nope, I’m not a m’sian, my relatives are. Seems like whenever I told someone I went m’sia, they would definitely asked if i’m a m’sian. >_<

Ang baos collection has been great so far, though still a shortfall from my personal target. *intend that I’ll hit my personal target soon* hohoho…

I really felt like a "pig" during this pig year celebration. You wouldn’t believe the amount of food I ate! Seems to me that every 3 hours we would have a meal. And OMG!!! I had the BAK KUT TEH that i’ve been craving for so long, and it was fantastic! Of cos, the seafood and reunion dinner was great too.

But food aside, what really touches me was that I finally learnt how to play PIANO properly for the 1st time!!! My 3 cousins, aged 6 - 12, taught me how to play 3 simple music pieces. Gosh !!! So touched!!! *sniffs* And they are amazing. So small size yet so musically talented. I was mesmerized by their mini demonstration. I shall let my kids learn how to play piano too at a very young age. You never know how handy it might be to mesmerize their future partners. Hohoho… *chuckles*

Okay, i guess what truly amazes me was the fireworks. Albeit it is illegal to play with fireworks in m’sia, many ppl. bought fireworks from the black market. And note this word- MANY! I literally had my fill watching fireworks the whole night. It’s like seeing fireworks for 5 national days in Singapore. I’m not kidding!

Despite all the happenings, my heart yearns to be back in Singapore, except for the fact that I’ll miss my grandpa ALOT. Yea… will visit him during my summer hols. *intend*

I reach Singapore on Tues wee morning, around 3am. Den after catching up with my sleep, i went to GuangLiang and Lydia’s place (my bball kakis, whom got married and moved to their new home recently) to "bai nian". Played mahjong and they cooked dinner for the bball gang. Nice!

I watched Don Juan DeMarco again, and OMG!!! So romantic!!! Sigh… wish there’s a Don Juan in reality. People nowadays are so caught up with material pursuits that they forgot how to be TRULY ROMANTIC. I want my "Don Juan". Heh heh =P

Alright, that’s what been happening over the past few days…

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Lottery

Oh, something amazing happened during the CNY. My mum striked lottery in m’sia. My dad striked lottery in Singapore.

As for me. I had a premonition that this 4-digit would strike. But somehow I was hesitating buying the numbers in Singapore. Anyway, I shrugged away the thought.
Guess what?!?

The number came out in M’sia!

Freaking weird I tell you. Even though I din buy, I felt like a Big Winner.

Hmm… what’s weird is that this is not the 1st time already.

And I’m certain there’ll be more in the future.

Hmm… weird.

Gratitude

I wrote down a whole list of things I can be grateful for by letting go of the past…

Wan2 acknowledge myself for the self-coaching and self-healing, as well as letting it go.

And for allowing LOVE to overwhelm me once again.

I am LOVE.
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The Great Strategist

I’m grateful for being blessed the capacity of stategizing and planning.

I’m grateful for being blessed the ability to play mind games if I choose to.

I’m grateful for being blessed the ability to analyze things / ppl. effortlessly.

Henceforth, I’ll only use these abilities as a tool and not as an end goal. Especially applicable to relationships.

Never be like those ppl. whom got blinded by their ego.

Walk the higher path of Inspirational coaching.

Inspire. Inspire. Inspire.

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V’day Celebration

I enjoyed my v’day this year. Had lots of fun giving and receiving love.

The Not-so-gd:
the least i expected was to coach during v’day. >_<  trust me, coaching skills is great but not when you gotta coach yr date on v’day. i never knew how coaching can be that useful. sigh…
Gotta wait 1 hour plus for a guy. It is so unlike me to stay so cool. I usually have a low threshold for guys who can be later than me. But hey, i realized i can be really patient when i choose to. *patz*

The GREAT happenings:

I bought DON JUAN DEMARCO dvd!!!!!!!

Who wants to borrow?!? Quick! Take a queue number!!!

great pressies, great flowers, great company, great shopping, great lunch and dinner treats, great conversations, great catching up, feel great giving… and feel great being single!!!

Cool!
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Home

Hmm… come come. let’s start clearing the clutters. =)

FOCUS!

Had a presentation today.

I like the way the mind was focused in delivering the presentation, instead of being reminded of the thousands and one clutters i’ve yet to clear.

Next task please!
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Inspirational coaching

I used to have an issue with self-blame / self-doubt. Had the tendency to "beat myself up" when things dun meet up to my expectations.

On one hand, it served me well that i’d always give my ego a reality check from time to time…

On the other hand, it did not serve me well that i short-changed myself n limit my potential.

The moment self-doubt was resolved, a newfound realm of inspirational coaching opens up for me.

And I realized I just want to inspire others that they have their own inner wisdom, love and courage, and all i need to do is to remind them of who they are, and where they once belong.

We are ALL, very WISE indeed!

And ALL, capable of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and ACCEPTANCE.

That you dun see it happening now because you’ve yet to learn the lessons that you’re supposed to learn…

Is there a recurring pattern in your life that you’ve been having?…

What lessons can you learn from it?

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Romance

Another reminder today that…

Things dun flow according to what I want b’cos…

I never specify what I want in the 1st place…

Argh!!!!!!!!

Okok… I’ll be more specific NOW!
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What Do I really want?

So tell me what is it that you really want?

And what is it that you really really want?

And what is it that you really really really want?

No idea???

Great! No wonder you dun get what you want.

Quick lah! What is it that you want?

My source of inspiration

http://www.liveyourmark.org/tcc/

The only self-improvement program I know of where participants graduate with more wisdom, more sense of responsibility and the ability to create more results in their lives than before.

Probably the only one where you still reap benefits from the aftermath of the course for the rest of your life.

The Courage to Create (TCC) - The Journey to Within.

Superstar

So Darren won. Well, I like him… though I’d hope a gal would win this time.

Whatever lah, it doesn’t matter.

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Architecture Analysis

No wonder so many ppl. bitched moaned and whined to me last semester.

I finally experienced what they went thru.

>_<

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The Law of Causality

On the bus ride to the office, "epiphany" struck me.

I realized how long it took me to reach where I am now, how long it took me to attract the
ppl. I attracted just so I can learn the necessary lessons from them, and how long it
took me to understand what is the GOAL of LIFE.

I’d repeated the cycle of human trap over and over and over and over and over and over
and over and over for eternity just to learn this lesson.

I’m ready to return to where I belong.

I dun want to repeat the cycle again next lifetime.

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Shopping

Bought lotsa cool stuffs.

Yea, and I feel pretty.

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Nice Quote

Saw this T-shirt when I was shopping and I like the quote. It kinda reflects how I feel,

"I may not be perfect but parts of me are pretty awesome."

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Child Psychology

I introduced a reward incentive scheme to this mischievious tuition kid of mine.

It just transformed him into a hardworking obedient and easily manipulated student.

Makes me feel how damn easy to "brain-wash" ppl. from young into a system called
"meritocracy".

And equally easy for ppl. to buy into the idea that life is meaningful and purposeful, and
so long as they accumulate enough good karma in this lifetime they will have a ticket
to the kingdom of Heaven.

Dun get me wrong. The system is good and forward mankind. But those whom dunno
how to use it as a tool will end up being the tool.

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FOS

No wonder I feel so lethargic lately.

Forgot to channel my energies to the right place and the right time for the right resources.

Shit !

I’ve got a new haircut and colour.

And I finally got the denim hot shorts I’ve always wanted.

Sexy Naughty Bitchy Me. Hehehe =P So exciting!
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My Mirror

Everytime I see my "mirror", she triggered the helluva outta me.

She even get the same haircut and almost-similar highlight as me.

Double triggering!

Ouch!

PS: If you’re reading this blog entry, I wan2 let you know how grateful I am to you for being a constant reminder of the areas i need to work on and ACCEPT about myself. Thanks! *hug*   

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Ego Exposed!

Feeling super low morale today.

Not that I’m not aware of the truth about myself, but having another awakening and realization of how truly WEAK and INSIGNIFICANT i really am, not to mention what a baby cub I still am makes me feel like running away from my own weaknesses, dig a hole in the ground and bury myself. Not that it will help. But at least the ego can stopped itself from being exposed by me and save further embarrassment.

Think the ego suffered another major reality check today. Either that, or a part of me that was once hidden has been jolted out of its well of ignorance and awakened to the truth about its ignorance. Or both.

Now I’ve gotta think of ways to consistently keep the ego in check so it wun come bouncing back stronger, like it always did after a major setback.

Hmm….. how to transcend the ego?

I wish I knew.

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I love studying!

I feel like mugging hard today.

Sometimes I got so involved with so many things that I forgot I’m a student.

I miss my studying.

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Everyone is Your Mirror

Whatever you see in others is a reflection of yourself- Whether you like it
or not.

· You can only see things in others that exist in
yourself.

· If you’re bothered by someone who you think is rude,
then you also have the capacity to be rude.

· When you feel uncomfortable or judgmental about someone
else’s actions or behavior, it’s because they remind you of what you don’t yet
love about yourself.

· You love yourself as much as you love others; you love
others as much as you love yourself.

(My comments: notice most, if not all, religions emphasize that you love thy
neighbours or your enemies, because when you accept them, you accept the parts
of them in yourself.)

Self-reflection is the
school of wisdom.
— Baltasar Gracian y Morales

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There is Nothing to Forgive

In order to forgive someone, you
must first judge something they did as bad or wrong. But to sit in judgment is
to behave as if we know everything there is to know about a person or a
situation. The truth is, we generally know very little about the big picture or
the grand design.

Our limited vision and self-centered perspectives may sway us to believe that
what we see and experience is all bad or wrong, but the universe maintains a
perfect balance. Everyone who exists, and everything that occurs, is an
integral part of the master plan to help us learn lessons of unconditional love
and realize our own true potential.

(My comments: When you misperceived that someone had done something that needed
forgiveness, you are not truly free from yourself or that person. If one
like to be truly free, it must not just be done on an intellectual level, but in your heart (emotional level) as well. There is a difference between
forgiveness and the true state of unconditional love.

The truth is…

· The universe is governed by the laws of perfect
balance.

· The state of unconditional love is beyond blame,
and beyond forgiveness.

· To love others with all your mind, heart, and soul
is to love for the sake of love.

· The universe doesn’t make mistakes.

Acknowledgments:
Both entries are extracted from the book, "Count Your Blessings".

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I’m Really Bored

Sigh…

I’m having the intense boredom again.

Bored playing the same old game of life.

Every week is the same old thing- listening to ppl. gossiping about their lives. But it’s the same old stories that come in different variations. After a while, you’ll realize ppl. really have nothing much interesting to gossip about.

I’m also bored reading books. The books are always talking about their views on life. Same old topics, different perspectives.

I’m also bored blogging. Same ppl. reading different blog entries, but i’m always blogging about the same thing, just different variations.

I’m really bored taking exams. I’m always taking exams for different modules.

I’m bored going for meetings. I’m always meeting ppl. but for different purpose.

I’m bored falling in love, being in love and out of love, and repeating the silly pattern over and over again. I’m even more bored of listening to other ppl. telling me their similar patterns of falling in love, being in love and out of love. Gosh!

I’m bored seeing my patterns repeating in others’ lives. And bored of ppl. sharing how their patterns are repeated in their frens’ lives.

Why is the human race so caught up with these similar patterns over and over again for eternity?

Dun they have better things to do?

Sheesh…

I want to transcend this boredom.

Let me get out of this trap soon.

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Game of Life

C’mon Universe…

You have challenged me to play the game of FULLY LIVE and FULLY LOVE. I’ve accepted your challenges before courageously, and play my part well…

Give me smt. BIGGER…

I want BETTER opportunities than what I have now…

I want more precise and effective way of CREATING POSSIBILITIES and VALUES for others…

I want BIGGER capacity to contain these new challenges with the speed, effectiveness and precision to juggle all simultaneously…

I want the ability to EXECUTE the challenges effectively…

I want to GROW BIGGER than Who I Am now…

C’mon… Bring it On! Give me new games to play…

I want to be tempted… I want a challenge… I want a fight…

To all FISHERMEN… I dun care what you’re fishing for…

I may just be the FISH you want…

Come come…

FISH ME!!!

Sigh… let me get out of this ocean soon. I want to explore other oceans.

Let me get bored telling you how bored I am.

Ah har!

I found how to overcome my intense boredom- by giving the brain a good exercise.

I bought 3 excellent books at Borders a couple of days ago:

1) The undiscovered self, by C.G.Jung

Jung is a famous psychiatrist-turned-philosopher. Those whom have heard of Sigmund Freud would know that he’s the grandfather of psychology, delving into the realms of psycho-analysis and the conscious world.

Jung is one of his pupils, and those whom want to know more about "what is consciousness?" Start by reading this book.

It’s a very thin book btw… but very concise.

2) The Universe in a single atom, by Dalai Lama

In this book, the Dalai Lama covers the topics of "nothingness", "consciousness" and how quantum physics come into play to understand the beginnings of the Universe. He also presented controversial topics like "could there be a first cause before the Big Bang?"

It’s my current fave book. I was trembling with excitement when I read it ‘cos the book gave me a gd insight on how intuition came about (even though the word ‘intuition’ was never brought up in the book as a discussion.)

It’s a little chim reading though. I’ll try to summarize the key concepts on my blog after i’m done with the book. See the word -"try to?" Yea…

3) The Art of Seduction

The title of the book suggests it all. Need I say more?

Actually, I bought the book ‘cos the name "Don Juan" was mentioned. Gasps!!!  The author sure knows me well…

Argh… Where can I buy the DVD- Don Juan DeMarco?!? If anyone come across this movie at any shop, lemme noe k? *grateful*

And if anyone of you know of any good Zen philosophy books, let me know k?

I’m also looking for this book- "Beingness and Nothingness" by some philospher called John… Satre.

If anyone knows where I can borrow or buy it, or even the full name of the author, pls lemme noe too.

Cheers!