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My Boo Boo…

Hailed a taxi to my tutee kids place back on sun. Was trying to put what I’ve learnt out of the power memory program into practice, so i decided to register the taxi’s car license plate number into my brain’s filing system. Great thing i did, for i was so caught up with the anxiety of reaching my destination on time that i left my laptop in the cab.

Went into a frantic mood and dailed any comfort taxi’s hotlines i could lay my fingers on. Oh, i found out that Comfort and CityCab had merged recently (some useless data, but it’s information for you if you find a value). Anyway, the taxi driver shared with me how lucky i had been. The lady passenger who got onto his cab after me, saw my laptop and put it into her bag. In a while time, she would have gotten out of the cab and i could have kissed my laptop gdbye (come to think of it, i wouldn’t even have the chance for that kiss). At this moment, the taxi driver received the lost report from the HQ and retrieved my lappy back in no time!

Wohoho… even though i had to pay for extra cab fare since he drove back to my initial destination, i guessed it’s better than paying for a new lappy. So for returning my lappy safely to me, i’ll like to acknowledge that Mr. Ng of comfort taxi SHA 4627 R. Thank you!!! yah yah.. for those whom believe in lottery, here’s 4 digits for you.

As for me… i learnt smt. out of this boo boo… Never underestimate the power of your memory capacity. Erm… or maybe it’s Never underestimate the importance of taking down taxi’s car license plate number, ‘cos you’ll never noe when you gotta need it. And maybe this too- Always stay present to your thoughts and environment… how abt this? - Boo Boo always happens for a reason. So learn the lesson(s) well.

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Watching the world goes by…

Blue sky white clouds out of the window
Green trees within concrete jungle
Buildings beyond buildings
Cars rush, cars stop and more cars again
Business times financial times to update recent times
Study room within bigger seminar rooms
When is the beginning?
When is the end?
Is it the beginning of an end, or an end to a beginning?
Done with "chopping" and gotta learn to "start a fire" now
If life’s a journey, den it gotta be another process again
Is it a complete freedom within my enslavement to time,
or enslavement to what freedom i believed i’ve got?

Pause. Breathe. Listen to the breathing. Hear the rhythm of my heart beat.

Back to learning how to "start a fire" again.

(in plain english- i’m in one of the study rm in smu lib’s, looking out of my window aft being sick and tired of working on my website. hahaha… come to think of it, i think i noe what the poet, Li Bai, is talking abt in his famous "Quan qiang min yue kuan" poem)
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Movie ratings
- Da Vinci Code (8/10)
Thank goodness i forgot most of what i’ve read. So i dun have as high expectations as those die-hard fans. Actually, the movie’s witty! I laughed louder than when i watched over the hedge. Lol~ Just like the conspiracy that simply add spices to life and the sardonic jokes. The only complaint is that i find the movie a mocking to life. Go figure!   

-  Over the hedge (7/10)
Had done a movie review in my previous post. It’s definitely not my fave comedy, but a gd attempt to illustrate a deeper meaning to the movie than what it seems. Okay lah… it’s funny too!

-  X-men (7/10)
I like storm’s hairstyle. Very chio… I like jean’s powers… Simply Incredible! I dislike cyclope (Scott’s role) in this movie- he’s an ornament (you noe what i mean).
If I can choose the powers i like, it’ll be reading ppl.’s mind and manipulating their tots such that they’re able to buy into the stories i want them to believe (so they can gimme their $$, you see. hiak hiak hiak~), as well as transpolating (maybe i got the term wrong. But Im referring to the ability to get to places wherever i want, ‘cos im a lazy bugger)
Since it’s just a movie (n let’s pray it’ll stay a movie. can you imagine seeing ppl. flying in broad daylights? gosh!), no point day-dreaming. Enjoy the movie! ; )

Disclaimer: Yours truly is not to be held responsible for any disappointment in the movie(s) that she had recommended. However, do feel free to give acknowledgements (only the gd ones hor!) if you had any gd movie experience(s).

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People always change. The only thing constant, is change.

In a relationship, if one partner changes/ grows faster than the other and the latter is resistant to changes, then they may have a problem. Heard of the sentence over tv sitcoms, "You’ve changed. You weren’t used to be like that."? If one changes faster than the other and the latter can’t catch up, then there may be a problem. If both are committed to change and growth, the relationship will be lasting and stronger.

The same applies for friendship, actually.

When it comes to friendship, i’m a chameleon. I blend into my different cliques of friends. They grow, we grow as a group. It goes like this- even if i’ve grown much over the years, i dun show that to them. I try my best to blend in. If they’re fun-loving, bitching kinda buddies, i bitch and have fun. We dun talk "chim chim stuffs" such as "champion your growth", "fight your inner battles" or political/religious kinda topics.

So why do i bring this up?

I realized that one group of my friends have grown. The other day i chatted the "chim chim stuffs" with one of my friends [he should noe whom i'm referring to ] and to my surprise, it’s not that difficult anymore.

cool… they grow, we grow.

Grow Grow Grow… Change Change Change…

The only thing constant, is change.   

Kristen, your best adventures are Unexpected
Endeavors

Checking out a new art exhibit, catching a baseball game, or just picnicking
in the park — who knows where you’ll find yourself next? You are an adventurer
in the truest sense — spontaneous and flexible with a passion for trying new
places and things.

With your easygoing nature, you are the
quintessential road tripper. No maps, no plan, no timelines. You’d rather let
the road take you wherever it may lead. North, south, east, or west — your inner
compass has no limits. So give it a spin and let it decide where your next
adventure will be!

P.S: Very true. I love an adventure anyday, so long as it doesn’t disturbs my slp~… Any one up for an adventure? Let’s play tourist for a day and tour around spore!

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Had a real sinful sunday packed with laksa for lunch, popcorn and nachos (oh that cheese!) over movie, dou hua with peanut-filled tang yuan, banana roti prata (that swt sauce… OMG) and mushroom with cheese prata (oh no! More cheese!!! >_<)… Thanks ah ming, for recommending new places to eat! cool! =)

Caught over the hedge yesterday. Apart from appreciating as a comedy, which it is meant to be, I saw smt deeper about the movie. The movie started off with this quote- "Animals eat to live. Humans live to eat." How true. Dun understand wad this quote means? Go watch that movie.

Next, all the characters depict our reality. Be it the character whom plays the coward by pretending to be dead everytime a problem occurs; the wise tortoise whom got shunned aside for his cautious nature b’cos it impeded progress, but only to dawn to everyone in the end that they should have followed the old wisdom (bu ting lao ren yan, chi kui zai yan qian = it’s yr own misfortune not to follow advises from yr seniors); the professional and experienced pest terminator whom allowed his pride and ego to get into his way of solving a problem effectively (he really should watch "Da Chang Jin"  to see how a medical practitioner should be humble towards all her patients); the pretentious character whom’s on everyone’s side for his own benefits, but only to realize in the end that kinship matters more than anything else; the loaded and arrogant lady whom thinks that money can make the world goes round; the self-centred bear whom bosses others’ around and think he is right (the size of the bear symbolizes the authority in our working world); the energetic squirrel whom symbolizes someone whom is good at executing tasks but poor at strategic planning…

There’s something to learn from anyone in this movie. Personally, my fave character gotta be J.R., the main character, ‘cos I learnt more from the character, especially- knowing when to be satisfied, and never lose sight of what’s important for you.

Nice movie. Must watch k? =)
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I’m really bored. I need an adventure. Or can someone pls gimme a problem to solve? not that i dun have one of my own, but none of mine are juicy nor scandalous enuff. They’re too insignificant. hohoho…

Food hunt, theme adventures, going or organizing blind dates, movie marathons, sports events, creating a website, starting a biz, learning or creating new dishes… any kakis?

Does anyone noe of any gd places I may check it out? hohoho…

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A stroke of inspiration…A style of my own…A design in progress…

A design in progress…A goal to achieve…A miracle to happen…

What’s next?

To be continued…

<picking up web designing for the 1st time>
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I went for the power memory workshop over the weekend. Before the course, I scored 14.5/20. At the end of the course, I managed to memorize 99.5/100 items. The 0.5 marks difference was b’cos i forgot about the colour. hahaha… anyway here’s a free advertising from me to those who have yet to take up the program- it worked! And with practice,one’s memory capacity is supposed to increase… hmm… actually that’s not my concern. My concern is how to increase my absorption rate and retenting information i’ve studied. Need to practise man… and fuse it with mind mapping and speed reading… cool cool stuffs…

Failed to impress Jian when I saw him on tues though. hahaha… guess one gotta be really thick skin gesturing in public. i was really uncomfortable doing that. well… perhaps next time… =) or rather, go for the preview lah!

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I had dinner after the power memory workshop. I din notice that i had chilli soy sauce on my finger. (those chilli padis with seeds, and soy sauce)

On my way back, i rubbed my eyes with my fingers. Guess what?!? The chilli padi was so potent that i could not open my eyes for the next 20minutes. Ivan had to escort me to macdonald to wash my face. And i realized that no amount of water can wash off the effect. So poor ivan had to get ice for me… alright… ice worked… only that every other minute the numbing effect will return, and hence, i had to reapply the ice constantly. All these moment while i was suffering, Ivan stood there dunno whether to laugh out loud, or to cry out of helplessness (since it was pretty bad). Sigh… me too, actually. Hahahahaha…..

Nonetheless, it was a great life experience. Yea, i mean one could learn a lesson from every experience right? Mine was- in life, there’re moments when we will be careless (like staining chilli sauce on my finger), completely helpless (when no amount of water can wash off the effect), and impatient (when i wanted the ice to work immediately). At this point, we got to learn to ask for help, and place trust in them. After the incident, you have a choice to blame the world for what happened, or have a great laugh about it. For me, seems like the latter is a better choice. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA…. so embarrassing! >_<

Special acknowledgements to Ivan, whom saved the day. It was very nice of you to send me back home safely. THANKS! =)

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Met up with Jian on tues, and we had international buffet at United Square! Whoopey… it was something i had wanted to do for the longest time. Gosh… for $32.45 nett per pax, i had refills of oysters (yummy!!!), sashimi (salmon especially… drools~) , mini buddha jumped over the wall (erm, you mean that herbal soup?!?), yam puree (sweet!), "xue har" that Alex used to recommend so enthusiastically once before (hmm… i wonder why?), terriyaki, rows of desserts, cocktails, sushi, seafood, cheese, choc fondue (no space left for that though)… OMG! I’m drooling again… and I’m hungry for buffet now… drools……..

VALUE FOR MONEY! MUST TRY!!!

PS: no i dun get paid for free advertisements.

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Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we’re powerful beyond imaging.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberate others.

Extracted from the movie- Coach Carter.

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Wah biang, my bahasa melayu really cannot make it anymore! I called a malay family just now and wanted to ask whether so-and-so is at home, as well as whether the person understands english…
the malay lady replied in a string of what-seemed-like-melayu that i dun understand! Gosh… this is terrible…

The only sentence I could blurt out was, "Ada awak bercakap inggeris?" (Do you speak english?)

Sigh…

And I realized the most frequently used spanish sentence in my limited knowledge is, "Hablo espanol un poco." (I speak a little spanish language.)

Hahahahaha…. seems like there’s a similarity between both languages… alrighty, time to brush up!

Saya mesti bercakap dalam bahasa melayu dan espanol dengan kuat. (I must speak malay and spanish fluently.)

That’s one more goal to add in my summer hols’ to-do-list.
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I fell sick……. down with flu and fever…..

so burnt out……….

have to catch up with many old friends  separately this coming week……

sigh……

i dunno whether to look forward or dun look forward……

i just want my rest……..

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

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I cooked dinner last night, and whipped up a couple of new dishes.

Although my brother never acknowlege me for cooking for him (that’s brother for you anyday), but complain that he had to wash the dishes…

I like the way he finished up everything with that hey-this-is-not-bad expression…

hohohohohohoho………. so delighted!!! =)
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In each of us resides both a black and white dog.

The black dog is the one that holds us back from doing something, or makes us stay in our own comfort zone. It shows up in various forms, like the ones below:

1) Nah… lemme slp for 5 more mins… just 5 more mins…
2) Dun try lah… it’s so tough!
3) I dun think I can make it…
4) Well, I’ve got the whole weekend to complete my assignment. What’s wrong slacking for awhile? It’s called, "a little rest goes a longer way k?" I’m resting now so I can pia later. Yea…
5) Erm… but the cheese cake looks so tempting… aiyah, I will be on diet tmr lah. Really… tmr…

As for the white dog, it appears in forms as shown below:
1) Dun worry, you can do it! Have faith in yourself.
2) Just a bit more… hang in there!
3) If I dun do it now, I prob wun do it at all. So better start now…

Every moment, the black and white dog are fighting against one another. Most of the time the black dog wins, not b’cos the white dog is weaker, but rather, we are so used to letting the black dog win that it soon becomes a habit. Whichever dog wins depends on whom you feed most.

Which dog do you feed more energy to?

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I was flipping thru my journal when I read this:

" To stay in the comfort zone is an act of survival, as you retain control/power over yourself and the things that you think are valuable to you. However, in actual fact, you are valuing those that have no value in order to survive.
Value is created. It is not inherent."

Looking back at almost one year back, and looking at where I am now…

I can’t help but heave a long sigh…

I’m glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and accept the test that life poses to me.

Too lazy to blog my past. Not important. In any case it’s in the archives…

There was once Dianna and I rode on a roller coaster. I told her all my previous encounters with viking, and how truly scared I have had been. She remarked, "But i tot you’re very courageous one?"
I’ve always wanted to say this to her, "No dear, I’m really a coward at heart. But my courage shows up b’cos I do the things I fear most."

So what’s the connection between this story and my comfort zone?

IPS… just recalling how I had confronted my fears in jumping out of my comfort zone is enough to make me go weak in my knees. I wonder where the courage comes from. In any case, I’m glad (’tis an understatement) courage shows up at the right time.

If I can express how I feel now, it will be smt like picking up a litter and tossing behind me. Good riddance to my past. Tataz…